Coco Puffs
A post I started in 2021: The year started out with the senseless death of a close friend, spiraled into the loss of my job and crashed into a global pandemic. I remember when I thought the second lightning strike was traumatic. Turns out it wasn’t the biggest thing I would deal with in 2020. I was diagnosed with cancer right before Thanksgiving and then had COVID by year’s end. I hope life is on the uptick now because I’m strained by all this adapting and persevering. A nice long lull would be most welcome.
How it’s going now: So. I might need an outlet. I need to get my life and my head sorted. There’s never going to be a lull. Hard things will never just go away or fix themselves. Mental illness is a very hard thing.
You know you’ve built a good facebook, when you can’t find anyone to unfriend during a seasonal cleanup of your friends list. Can you scroll back through your social media and continue to enjoy your old posts? Does it feel like thumbing through a loved magazine? Does it give prospective employers, and landlords, and lenders the picture of a low-risk, high-flying individual? Do you think you can trust me? Am I reliable, is this relatable? Am I sane?
Does this page make my butt look crazy?
Obviously, I’m horrible at keeping up with my blog. I don’t want to throw it away and I keep thinking I have so much to write about, but I have all these nagging things I must do first. They’re such a bother. Bills to pay, so I have to work. The garden I adore needs constant attention. The food I buy and prepare? People keep eating it so I have to do it often. All the dirty dishes and soiled laundry. It keeps coming back. In the words of Mr Incredible, “No matter how many times you save the world, it always manages to get back in jeopardy again. Sometimes you just want it to stay saved!” Dang it! “Can we keep it clean for ten minutes?!?”
So much I’d like to have more time for. Enjoying life with my kids, my partner and my pet. Seeing the sites around me. Trying new recipes. Exercising more. Rescuing and fostering dogs and cats. I want to make more money so I can start a small farm.
I just need more money and more time…and I’m not sure I’ll ever have any of that.
I guess the best thing to do, is do better with the time and money I have right now.